it’s 2020 and i haven’t been blogging since. twitter found me again and i thought it’d be easier to share my thoughts through microblogging. it is kind of convenient but i cant get my thoughts together. and it made me less creative to construct my thoughts.
anyway, why am i here again? i just thought i’d give my rusty brain a reminder of how good I was before. really, i am in awe with my old works, my old posts. i never thought i could pull those lines off of my head when i was just being heartbroken. guess what, I still am. but a little rusty in the head. i’m getting older and i still havent got my shit together. although a lot has happened, but not much has changed. except with the global crises that is going on right now: pandemic, almost world-wars, politics, obnoxious know-it-all people, there are so much of them right now.
even before all this quarantine/lock down was implemented, i have already isolated myself socially. so it doesn’t really affect me that much. i am low-key thankful for being jobless because i don’t have to have major adjustments with my lifestyle.
So… we now run a small business, a computer shop and a mini snack bar on the side. It is currently closed because of the implemented community quarantine as i have mentioned earlier. another thing that happened to me is that i started being a fan girl again after a long time since F4 back in high school. So… there’s this group from South Korea called BTS and they are global superstars. there’s not one who you would ask have not heard of them at the least. they re the reason why i think i am kind of in a sane state of mind. if i haven’t stumbled upon them, i might have drowned myself in thoughts and misery and how my life is taking detour after detour.
anyway, i think i only blogged back just to say i am a BTS ARMY… so… no matter the heartaches, the obstacle I’m experiencing right now, i can get through them because BTS is there for me cheering me unconsciously how my life is still worth living. Because of them, I became more self-aware, i recognize my self-worth and i am in the process of loving myself back and loving it more.