Laban At Laya

​Sa laban na ito

Mag-isa kong ipagtatanggol ang sarili ko

Laban sa iyo

Dahil ang inaakala ko’y kasama kita

Sa bawat pagsubok na hinaharap nating dalawa.

Di ko namang akalain

Sa iba ka papanig

Sa iba mo inialay

Ang iyong buhay.

Hindi ko namang magawang lumayo

Dahil ako’y nakatali sa iyo

Kung ang panaho’y maibabalik pa

Sana’y matagal na akong nakalaya

Ngayon ako’y mag-isa

Walang kakampi, nawawalang pag-asa

Di ako susuko

Sa pag-ibig na ako’y nakapako

Kung di man kita maipaglaban at naangkin ng iba

Hayaa’t ako na’ng bahala sa sarili ko nang lumigaya

Sawa naman din ako sa mga kasinungalingan mo

Ngayon nama’y paniwalaan ko ang sarili ko.

Pusong Sanay

​Sa dinamiraming napagdaanan sa pagmamahal sa iyo

Puso’y maraming natutunan, 

Mga alaalang di makakalimutan, 

Mga bagay na nakasanayan, 

Mga panahong nais balikan.

Nais sana’y ang mga ito’y nakapagpapasaya

Ngunit balik saki’y luha

Puso’y sanay na

Sa mga iyong ginagawa
Sabi mo pa’y wala na akong magagawa

Sa mga bagay na tapos na

Di na maibabalik at maitama

Pagkakamaling iyong ikinaligaya
Lahat ng iyon ay babalewalain

Kayang tiisin

Sakit na dinidimdim

Mangangapa nalang sa dilim

Dahil pikit-mata kita’y yakapin
Sabi mo pa’y siya ay nakalipas

Nalilibing ng oras

Siya’y hindi mahal na wagas

Pero sa kanya’y nakapagbigay pa ng rosas
Ako’y nagbubulag bulagan

Kunwari’y di nararamdaman

Ang sakit na pilit kinakalimutan

Ang sakit na aking nakasanayan.

Afterstorm

All of the sudden, it was sunshine
Tonight the moon isn’t bright
But it everything inside me is serene.
After the storm-
Everything inside me hushed.
It was calm
And I am elated.
Still, you were a storm.
I am calm.
But I was devastated.

Dear Love

Sometimes I pray that Mariana Trench would still be deeper than my love for you. But I was wrong. So many times I lost count. It went through hell; went past our satellites; beyond the galaxies and back. For how many times I tried walking away from you- from our love, from all the years we had, from all the hearyaches and headaches we caused each other. Despite the lunatic women who insisted themselves in our exclusive party; despite the bulls**t amd frigging whatnots we did and did not do-
I AM STILL HERE. I ALWAYS STAY.

Ephemeral Pain

Just like a tailor who pricked his thumb with a needle,
A mother who scalded her tongue from tasting a hot bowl of soup,
The sting in your throat on your first tequilla shot,
That instant brainfreeze you get from slurpee,
The mini heart attack when we first hold hands,
And another when we first kissed,
The headache you get when you cried after your first fight,
And the second,
And the fights that followed.
The heartache after your world ended when he left you.
They come so fast,
Yet those infinitesimal moments are excruciatingly the longest agony.
And time is a wonder,
You woke up one day
You are healed.

What Now?

There was no sorry
You opened the door and let me in
You said hi, and I replied
Then you kissed me,
I tasted your smile.

You forgot the other day
The fight we had
You were mad at me for being strong
I was a monster, you said
You know very well you’re wrong.

I am the biproduct of your love,
If that’s what love is for you.
Another me was born
The kind who doesn’t give a fuck anymore.

So apologies don’t matter to me
Your sorry has lost its color
You’re still going to be hanging around
And you’ll be lost in somebody else’s arms.
While I am still standing on the same ground.

The Wait

I went in the cinema early
The previous screening ended 20 minutes ago.
I guess they need to rewind it, the reel.
To get back to the start.
To show me what it is, what it used to be. What it feels like it again.
Maybe i was too early,
To get into your life, too
Maybe you were still rewinding
Not just for few minutes, not even a month,
Perhaps more…
Preparing yourself for a new show
Maybe made a few edits
Maybe this time,
You are preparing for a better ending.

Can’t Sleep

Slowly… slowly…
Breathe through your mouth
Part your lips and let out a sad sigh

Slowly,
Hold back the whimper
While his arm is across your chest
Don’t wake him up
Control your shiver.

He doesn’t have to know
How you crumble inside
Let him think you’re just thinking too much
He doesn’t care what you think anyway

Slowly,
He pulled you in
Tightening his embrace
But that doesn’t stop you from falling apart.
Let him sleep peacefully
Let him let you drown in misery

Slowly… slowly
Slide out from his touch
Make a cup coffee because there’s no beer in your fridge
Taste something bitter
To help you make feel better
Make a poem in every sip
Slowly… slowly
Go back to sleep.